My Cup Runneth…Empty
I am checking in… How are you, Sis? Unjani ?...no, really, how are you?
Winter is a favorite season for some, with the “cool” air, winter fashion, cooking hearty meals, and evenings spent snuggled in blankets. But for others, it’s a reflection of what some of us are going through. The season is cold, dry, harsh, and dull, or is it just me?
The unfortunate part for me personally is that this is how I then view everything, whether good or bad. It is the filter I look through. Moments of productivity or small joys that should fill me are too heavy and clouded.
And so, I whisper what I sometimes don’t want to say aloud:
· My heart seems heavy.
· My mind is constantly racing.
· My words are few.
· My prayers seem like complaints.
· My smile...upside down, not gone, just the wrong way round.
· The cup that used to overflow now runs empty.
“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.” – Psalm 46:1
But here’s the honest, awkward, slightly uncomfortable truth:
I know He is here, but I can’t talk to Him right now.
My words come soaked in frustration, tears, or exhaustion. You want to reach out but feel like you’re too tired even to lift your spiritual arms. I am here feeling like David, the man after God’s own heart, cried out with deep honesty, “How long, Lord?” “Why have You forsaken me?” “I am weary with my groaning.”
Sometimes the greatest act of faith is not in the abundance but in the emptiness, when you keep showing up, even if it’s just with silence and sighs. I am not a soldier in the army of the Lord right now; I am Bartimaeus (Mark 10:46-52), who cannot see anything but hears that the Lord Jesus is present. So I continuously cry, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!”
In this empty season, feeling stuck, dried up, I ask that you help a fellow Godly lady to cry out, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!” Because I know I need to draw closer to the One who fills empty cups, again and again. Till I runeth over.
So today, I stand in the gap for myself & for you who find yourself in this space:
· God sees us (El Roi- Genesis 16:13)
· He fills us with all joy and peace in believing (Romans 15:13)
· He restores our soul (Psalm 23:3)
· He revives (Psalm 85:6)
And even now, He is holding space for your sighs. For your honesty. For your upside-down smile. So Sis, I am hanging in there…join me & Let this winter season not define our worth but rather our need for the Lord.